Submitted by Brandy from New Carlisle Ohio USA
Date: Fri Jul 20 12:08:31 2001
Aj,
I have written to you 2 times now. Your mom says that you are doing better, which isnt a shock because I knew that you would come through. You are a strong person. As you can see you are in EVERYONE's thoughts and prayers, I think that a lot of fans even have more respect for you now then they did. You were man enough to come to the guys, family, and fans, and say hey I have a problem and i need help. you are already on the road to getting better. I love all of the BsB equally but i can relate to you the most, especially with growing up without a dad. i've never got the chance to be "daddys little girl". but the BsB and their music has got me through a lot of tough times in my life, to being me and my mom to actually talking, to my dad, which i've never met, to losing my 6 day old baby cousin, to losing a good friend in a car accident, but you guys helped me through everything with ur inspiration and I hope that all your fans, friends, family, and yourself can help you get through this. I sent you a letter in the mail too, and i'm sure you'll know which one is mine, and i'm hoping that you get to personally read it. ~God Bless You~~*~Love you always and no matter what~*~,
Brandy
Submitted by Justine from USA
Date: Fri Jul 20 12:05:02 2001
Yo bone, wassup? Nothing new today. I hope u r continuing to get better. Anyway, i cant think of anything else to say rite now, so maybe ill think of something later. I really like writing to u like this and i want to thank u for letting the fans do something. It means a lot to us that we can help u in some way, even if u never read a lot of these entries, we still feel like we r doing something. Luving u...justine
Submitted by Erica Kilgore from Lexington Ohio USA
Date: Fri Jul 20 11:58:16 2001
AJ -- I'm gonna keep you in my prayers until you get better. You have to remember that its going to take sometime, and you know that you have the support of the guys and all of the BsB fans. We all love you more then that, and you know that your friends and the guys wont ever turn our backs on you. Get better soon AJ. I love you!!
Submitted by corey from Templeton Ca. USA
Date: Fri Jul 20 11:32:19 2001
Dear A.J,Being a depression and drinking survivor I know how tough it can be to just live day to day so I just wanted to send you this prayer and let you know you are in my prayers
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things i cannot change
Courage to change the things i can and
Wisdom to know the difference
Sincerely,
Corey Morton
Submitted by Noha from cairo Egypt
Date: Fri Jul 20 11:27:43 2001
i love you from deeper & deeper of my heart..I support you A.j...pray for you to recover as soon as possible..& I know you`re strong..i know u can do it..just do your best..& god will do the rest.. LovE You 4EvEr
Submitted by brandiee from ******** ****************** Australia
Date: Fri Jul 20 11:11:14 2001
First of all i want to tell the fans out there who are acting immature and selfish,how dare you balme aj for anything that goes wrong in your life.aj is not the one doing anything wrong to you or your life,whatever is going on in your life is your responsability and yours alone.if you were any kind of fans you would understand that aj is human and has problems too and for you people to criticise how he dealt with his depression just makes me sick.until u know exaclty how aj is feeling inside and what he is going through you have no right what so ever to be so selfish and pathetic to assume that you know how he should have dealt with it.you people need to realise that the guys make mistakes and go through things that are not of there control,stop thinking they are immortal and are perfect people,reality is they are not ,they are everyday people like you and me and should be treated with the same respect you would want to be treated with.i use to have great respect for alot of bsb fans but seeing all the negativity and selfish childish letters you fans are writing show me that you wouldnt care if aj was dying ,you guys only care about meeting them cause there famous or sleeping with them.how would you feel if you were treated like that?.when you people learn to grow up and go through bad experiences yourself maybe you will look back and realise just how selfish and disrespectful you were.people deal with problems in all kinda of ways and for you fans to try and make aj feel bad because you missed a concert or because you have thoughts of suicide is just unbelieveable,maybe one day you will realise just how pathetic you were.remember this if you ever meet aj and he dosent jump up and down in excitement just think back to this experience and realise that maybe he knows deep down inside he will never be able to really know who his real fans are compared to the ones who just want a piece of him.FOR AJ----
you are a beautiful soul and a true treasure to your family and friends,i am sorry for what your going through but am happy you realised you had a problem that takes great courage and strength.i know you will get through this i have so much faith in you and believe that if in your own heart you want to get stronger and pass this by then you can do it.dont listen to all the negative things said about you or the selfish fans,everyone has problems its just because your a public figure people find it hard to deal with it.thats the thing these days the problems are hidden where noone can see them and there left undealt with so people dont care,but when someone in your status falls to the problems around they think its majoirly bad but its not,your only human.i hope to see you recovered and happy again real soon,with a great family,excellent friends and 4 brothers who love you to death i know you will survive this to help others and the lesson will be that you will appreciate life more and know that there are people in this world who are worse off then you ,its what made me realise how i can live and be strong.take care aj and be positive.
XXXXX
Submitted by leodi from USA
Date: Fri Jul 20 10:24:32 2001
AJ.Your mind is more powerful than your temptations
Submitted by harliza(mrs.mclean) from selangor malaysia Malaysia
Date: Fri Jul 20 10:14:40 2001
woi aj if u think that is bad i got the really bad life COS OF U!!!
* i am about 2 b send 2 hospital cos of u!
* then i hurt my leg cos of u!!!
* i lost my best friend cos of u!!!!
it just i hate living my life cos of u !! u keep ruin my life my friend told me 2 stop 2 do these stupid things n get a life but it just hard 2 do it i hate my life
but still u r my make my life ok when once i tried 2 killed myself!
i love u!!
Submitted by NUR from singapore Singapore
Date: Fri Jul 20 09:31:40 2001
hi A.J,
I AM VEY CONCERN ABOUT YOU WHEN I HEARD THE NEWS.I UNDERSTAND THAT IT IS HARD FOR YOU TO GO THROUGH YOUR DEPRESSION BUT THERE IS OTHER WAY TO SEARCH FOR SOLUTION.EVERY FANS OF YOURS IN EVERY COUNTRY IS CONCERN ABOUT YOU.I WILL PRAY THAT YOU ARE ABLE TO GO THROUGH THIS LIFE SMOOTHLY AND GET AWAY FROM THE OBSTACLE IN YOUR LIFE.IF YOU ARE ABLE TO CHANGE,EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN YOU LIFE WOULD BE HAPPY.EVERYONE NEED TO GO ON EVENTHOUGH IT IS DIFFICULT FOR THEM.
FROM:
NUR
Submitted by sue and zo from manchester england United Kingdom
Date: Fri Jul 20 09:04:23 2001
hi AJ although we are all this way away from you we are thinking of you every day. As we write this we are listening to your new album. we know you can get through this, you have nothing to be ashamed of, things have just got out of your control for a while. But now you are on the road to recovery by making that first step and realising that you need help. You have been blessed with such talent with that unique voice. waiting... waiting... waiting to hear you sing again. We miss you, get well soon and hope to see you in england very very soon. Lots of love and kisses Sue and Zo xxxxxxxx x x x xxxxxx
Submitted by Mandee from S/I NY USA
Date: Fri Jul 20 08:05:42 2001
Hey everyone I personally wrote a song for AJ and you can check it out at my website www.BackstreetTribute.fan-page.com or you can read it here."You wished uon that star
And now you've come so far
Looking out infront of you
As they watch what you can do
The road you paved
The support they gave
Made you who you are...
(chorus)
Now that i've sat and watched
the pain and wounded heart
A love that died, broke free
In my heart you're angel of the
The heart from your brothers
The support from your mother
it can concor all...
Believed in yourself, for there's an inner peace
Birds will fly high
As the broken heart dies
(chorus)
Oh...
Birds will fly high
As the broken heart dies
(repeat chorus)
Angel of the..."
So send my comments on my song and visit my site and KTBSPA!! AJ we all love get better
Love, peace, happiness
Mandee
Submitted by vivian from Xiamen Fujian China
Date: Fri Jul 20 08:04:48 2001
I'll be there for you,no matter what happens,no matter what you do,mo matter where you go!
Submitted by Elizabeth from covington louisiana USA
Date: Fri Jul 20 03:54:27 2001
Hey A.J. I wish I could say that I know what you're going through but I can't.
I wish that I could say that everything will be fine but I can't. I wish that I could
say that you'll get better but I can't. Because only you know what you're going
through and only you know that everything will be fine and only you can help
yourself get better. Goin to Rehab was the first step and a very good one. I'll
be here if you need someone to talk to. Get better soon!
Submitted by Cindy from Lafayette Indiana USA
Date: Fri Jul 20 02:49:35 2001
I know about being there. When you've passed through trials, I've always been right there. I haven't let the storms of life overwhelm or drown you. I've protected you from the burn of the flames.
Love,
God, Your Ever Present Help in Times of Trouble
from Isaiah 43:2; Psalm 46:1My prayers are with you A.J. Know that you are not alone. I went through some hard times with the death of my parents. I didn't think that I would ever climb out of the depths of my despair. It took a lot of time and prayers, but I made it and I know that you can too. With love and support, Cindy
Submitted by lynick carter from Philippines
Date: Fri Jul 20 01:03:38 2001
FOR A.J.
If you think life has no worth for you, the world closes their ears.
I will be here For the grace I found in you has no better comparison on what this world could give.
I never lost the love that I have given you coz
i still believe in you.
