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Submitted by Krissy from Hazleton PA USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 19:22:36 2001
Well, I'm sure there is not much I could say right now that hasn't already been said, but I'm going to write anyway. I feel (as I'm sure many other fans do) so helpless right now.
I've been a huge, slightly obssessive BSB fan for 3 years now, and feel like I know them all personally, which makes it so hard to have to stand by and watch them go through this terrible time.
The only thing I can offer now is words, and that's exactly what I'm going to do. Even if AJ never reads this, I want to say that I am thinking about him, praying for him, and wishing him the best.
I always admired him for his talent, and for being such a unique individual, but now I admire him even more for being honest about his problems, and getting the help he needs to get better. The future won't
be easy. I know this for a fact, because my mom suffered from depression 12 years ago, and it was a very difficult time. Even though I was only a little kid when it happened, I could tell, at 4 years old,
what a serious effect it was having on my family. Thankfully my mom got the treatment she needed, and, though it wasn't easy, recovered, and went back to being the wonderful mother that she is. It won't be a cakewalk for AJ;
he does have a long road to recovery ahead of him, but I want to be encouraging, because at the end of that road, there is a very sweet reward - happiness and security. And I'm sure, no matter how hard it is, AJ will
make it though. I truly believe that he loves performing, the fans, and his family enough to give him the strength to overcome his illnesses. I have the utmost faith in him, and I know he'll come back, better than ever.
But til then I want him to know that I'm behind him all the way. This might be cliched, but my love is all I have to give, and if that helps AJ get even a tiny bit better, it was well worth it.
P.S. To Nick, Howie, Kevin and Brian - my heart is with you also. Thanks for being honest to the fans, and I wish you all the best of luck.
Submitted by Serena, Mariarita, Mirella from Florence Italy
Date: Thu Jul 12 19:19:45 2001
I'm sorry for my horrible English!!!!!!!!!
REMEMBER that we are looking forward to your return on the road.
If your life is on stage, our life is see you on stage!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WE LOVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF OUR HEARTS, WE NEED YOU.
Come back soon in Italy!!!!!!!!
CIAO........BELLO!! Serena, Mariarita, Mirella
Your biggest fans!!!!!!!!!
Submitted by Cait from Michigan USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 19:14:17 2001
Dear A.J.~~I have been looking for a place to tell WHOEVER is reading this how i feel. I dont even know how to begin telling you how much this whole situation has touched me.
A.J., from reading these letters to u, i think it is amazing how much impact u have on people, from the US, to Europe, to Africa...and i am sooo proud of you for what
you are doing. I know how u are feeling, i have had lots of troubles in the past, beyond belief, a father situation similar to yours, and i am just glad that u had the courage
and strength...u are the coolest! That song that u sang on TRL was beautiful, i cant get it out of my head, cause it is sooo true..I have used the Backstreet Boys' music for years helping me through my problems...and last year was the worst year...and i made it through,
i have u and the other guys to thank! I just want to let u know, that u are the greatest and are an inspiration to anyone and everyone, young and old.
I think that u can get through all of this, you have so much love, and so much support from the guys and all your fans! Take all the time u need! I end with this quote:
"Anything is possible, if only you believe" -----Peace and Love----
Submitted by Chrissy from NY USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 19:09:14 2001
Hey AJ! I know you'll get through all of this. I know how it is to loose a loved one. You seem like such a good person and don't forget that! I'll be supporting everything you do and have done 100%! You are in my prayers, have my love, and support!
Love ya always
Chrissy
Submitted by ashleigh from bangor ME USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 19:08:45 2001
Dear, aj hey whats up whats been going on nm here im really sorry that your going through so much when u didnt have ur concert in bosten i was so mad but when i found what happened to u i felt bad i hope some of ur depression isnt from fans and what not but if it was i would feel worse i really love bsb and every thing about them there so cool all my sisters (2) and cuz and friend of ours all love u and bsb i really hope u get better ill pray for u and hope u get back on track and i cant wait till the concert in bosten its my first concert and im gonna lose my vocie we all made signs for the concert on the 9th and shirts one person had a heart and a b and a s and a b and a we so it said we love bsb u guys r the best band ever and i hope u guys last im gonna tell my kids abut yall Aand how hot u guys r man u guys are fine and brian has such a cute butt kevin hes hott he was way hotter if he had a hair cut i really want to no y he doesnt get one lol and nick omg i would love a close up pic of him not one out of a mag i love him hes so sweet and baby faced man i love every thing about him and man hes hott i love that kid lol and u man u r so hott i love ur styles who ever gets mad about this is dumb and doesnt like u man they got a prob lol sorry its jut u guys r so cool and all and i will love yall 4ever lol well aj i hope u get better im really sorry. love yall ashleigh
Submitted by Danielle from Chesapeake Virginia USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 19:07:16 2001
hey AJ,how ya doing? i just put a card in the mail for you today! hope you enjoy it! i made it by hand! :0) anyway, i just wanted you to know that i got your back all the way! and that i love ya and think that you are doing the right thing! i knew that from the first time i heard bout this on tuesday the 10th of July. And you know whats strange? i had a dream that something bad/good was going to happen to one of the fellas! and when it actually did happen i thought 'wow, that was weird' anyway i send my best wishes and all my love and support for you! signed your #1 fan no matter what! ~DANIELLE S~
Submitted by JoBob from yeah right huh USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 19:04:42 2001
exactly...what were you drinkin'?
Submitted by *Stephanie* from Raleigh North Carolina USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 19:02:22 2001
~My Beloved AJ~
I can't put into words about how much more respect you've gained from me for wanting to be honest with everyone. I would also like to say that I'm behind you all the way and will be praying for you every night!
Submitted by Brandy from Tennessee USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 18:58:47 2001
Hi AJ! Just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you and I that I am behind you 100% in all the things you do. I am glad that you realized you had a problem and decided to get help. I really look up to you for that. Cause alot of people don't admit that they have a problem until it is too late. Good luck and God Bless! See you on tour. Lots of Love,
Brandy
Submitted by Valentina from Bogota Columbia
Date: Thu Jul 12 18:55:27 2001
A.J. We can´t live without air like backstreet boys will die if you´re not join us.
You have lots of everything you need right now LOVE and that will help you to be stronger ´cause BACKSTREET BOYS IS LARGER THAN LIFE
I hope you understand this messagge because I don´t speak english.
KTBPA
Submitted by Nana Carter from juiz de fora minas gerais Brazil
Date: Thu Jul 12 18:55:01 2001
hi dear Nick, I love you and I can't waste the chance to tell you I'm sorry for your hand...poor baby!!! Loving you from a distance makes me happy anyway!!! Kisses and be strong, AJ needs us more than ever!!! Nana Carter
Submitted by Lynn Ashe from Brevard NC USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 18:52:22 2001
Dear A.J.,I am very sorry to hear that you have suffered the loss of your grandmother. My grandmother died this past November, she was 96 and had suffered from Alzhiemers Disease for several years. She had really left us years before because, as you know, Alzhiemers destroys the mind making people forget everyone and everything they have known. However, I feel blessed to have had my grandmother live so long. We were best friends and there isn't anything we would not have done for each other. I read that you were also very close to your grandmother, so I do have some idea how much you are hurting. For you to have loved her so much, she must have been a wonderful person. You must have many wonderful memories to comfort you. Think of all the good times you two shared and remember your grandmother would want only the best for you. She would be very sad to know you are so unhappy and that her passing was a big part of your unhappiness. When you feel sad just think of her in her happiest and healthiest times and know where she is today she is even better than the times you remember. I am not a young fan, in fact I am the mother of a 15 year old BSB fan. I have been to three BSB concerts, we usually have to drive quite a distance to one of your concerts, and I can't express how much we both have enjoyed each and every concert. It is our hope and prayer that you will soon be well and back on tour. Please take care of yourself 1st. Your true fans will always be there for you and the Boys no matter how long it takes for you to recover. We just hope it is soon for we will be missing you very much. I hope knowing that millions of people out here really care about you and want you to have a speedy, complete recovery. I don't know about your faith and beliefs, I hope you know Jesus and that He can and will help you if you but ask Him. God bless you and know you are in the prayers of millions of fans all over the world. Please tell Nick we hope and pray his hand will soon be mended, we are real sorry he broke it. Sincerely,
Lynn Ashe
Brevard, NC
Submitted by Julie from Columbus Ohio USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 18:51:25 2001
AJWe wish you all the best. You are a remarkable singer and entertainer. Looking forward to many more concerts! Take your time and may God bless you and give you the strength to see this through. Julie and Lauren Fox
Submitted by Angela from Howell NJ USA
Date: Thu Jul 12 18:50:56 2001
Hey. Well, this was quite a shock to me. When I found out on Monday, I was in shock. I acted like everything was normal. But then, right after they played More Than That, I got up and walked outside on my porch, and I started crying. Not just sobbing, but really bawling, and I couldn't stop. It hurt so much to know he was suffering. All day I was crying. All night I cried. Yesterday morning I re-watched the TRL thing (I had taped it) and when he sang that song, just when I thought I couldn't cry anymore, I cried again. There was so much pain and emotion in his voice. It's been almost 48 hours and I can't get that song out of my head. Poor Nick! He didn't even speak, and then when they played the longer interview, everytime he did speak, he got choked up. How hard it must be for them. I can't imagine. I was listening to Black and Blue last night and Shape of My Heart came on, and during every song, when he would start to sing, I would start to cry. He has the most beautiful and soulful voice I've ever heard. The lyrics he sings in SOMH actually relate to what he's going through now. I didn't even realize. Do me a favor and listen to it, his part, and you'll see how incredible the similarities are. "Sadness is beautiful, but loneliness is tragical, so help me I can't win this war"?!? I was thinking, he CAN and he WILL win this war. I know it. It may take a while, but he'll do it. He needs our support, and it showed that he not only has our support but non-BSB fans as well, as shown on TRL yesterday. They were #1. I thought that was great, to know so many people support him, and are not running scared. Please, let's all keep it up, they need us to be there for them, it's gotta be hard enough as it is. Oh, and to the girl who wanted to know the lyrics to his song(since I've been singing it over and over, I happen to know it pretty well, =P)here they are: "Sometimes, I find myself/Within me/And I need sometime to find true love/But if I don't then I won't stop tryin'/And if I can't then I won't live lyin'/Yes/What do people really want?/They wanna be happy/I wanna be happy.// I hope that helped. If anyone has any thoughts or comments on my entry, just respond here, I check this page all the time. Thank you all so much, I love you. Bye. Pray for AJ, please. KTBPA! (I never write that, I figured I'd throw that in there, hehe.)--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Submitted by Nana Carter from juiz de fora minas gerais Brazil
Date: Thu Jul 12 18:49:04 2001
Hi dear AJ, I'm a brazilian fan and I got very sad when I heard of your problem. I always thought you were the soul of the BSB and I began listening more carefully to your songs just because of your 'black voice and style'. I was one of the lucky fans who went to Rio Concert and finally saw from live, you doing that great performance. I got really impressed when I first saw you performing 'All I have to give' at that 99 Orlando Concert - that day I found out you ruled and you were 'the artist' in the band. Well guy, all I wish you is that you get better soon so we can party again here in Brazil. YOU ROCK!!!
* it's not that I think the other guys are bad, I love them all too but ...you know what? when on stage..NO ONE ELSE COMES CLOSE TO YOU!!!!
Kisses and ktbspa more than ever!!!
Nana Carter
Hugs also from Angelica Richardson, Mary Littrel,
Júlia Dorough (4 years old he he ) and Paula Mclean WE LOVE YOU!!!!
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